i think all i’ve ever wanted is to have my dad see how different and grown up i am, and see my life as i get older and have a family and a home and maybe be a grandfather. and now he’s raised three other girls i don’t know and been a grandfather to two baby girls i don’t know and he may die in this dumb hospital that won’t give me any information because i’m not on his emergency fucking contact list.
i can’t decide if i’m more livid or depressed
